I got off worked. Looked at next weeks schedule.
Fucking no.

After I got home, turns out my step-dad's kids are here.
Probably for the weekend.
Fucking no.

Was gonna go hang out with Exile and Jester.
Have to fucking baby-sit the youngest little step-bitch.
getting payed 10 dollars for it.
(Since I refused to do it for free)
And it was pretty much the only chance I had to hang out with them.

Talked with my mom.
I'm gonna SERIOUSLY have to re-talk to the managers at Mcdonalds about my hours.
I'm scheduled for 32 hours next week.
I know that isn't FULL time.
But that's WAY too much for a full time student to be doing.
I only go to School on Monday and Wednesday to accommodate for my job.
But that doesn't mean I want those assholes to have me working every other day.
I can't do that. I fucking can't. I need time for homework if anything. I can't do that if I'm always fucking at work.

Oh and, so you all know. I go to school 13 hours a week. These first two, three weeks, they won't be so hard.
Later on they will be.
I CANNOT work all these hours they're scheduling me...
before 11:00 in the morning I can't do either.
>_< I'm scheduled for 9-5 one of these days.
No
No no no.
Fuck you Jessica (Manager who makes the schedules)
I am NOT a morning person.
I do NOT function properly at that time.
so FUCK YOU.

This past week. Thursday and Friday. I was scheduled 12-6.
THAT DOES NOT BOTHER ME.
THAT IS PERFECT.
I wouldn't mind having that be my schedule every fucking day.
I could do that.
get me off at 6. plenty of time to do homework, have a lil' fun.
But no.
This next week I have a lot of 9, 10 stuff.

GAH.
Okay. I couldn't sleep
My youngest step-brother is sleeping in my room so I can't be loud in there.
My other step-brother is actually sleeping in HERE. the Gameroom. On an inflatable mattress.
WHY CAN'T THEY FUCKING GO AWAY.
I DON'T WANT THEM HERE.
Clark annoys the hell out of me (youngest).
Nick is.. okay.. but It is irritating having him around still.
Oh and Clark leaves trash fucking everywhere.
he is babied.
GOD DAMNIT

I can't sleep because all these thoughts were swarming my mind.
It is 3:40 right now.
Hopefully I'll be able to get some sleep.
Thank god I don't work till 2:00 tommorrow.
Otherwise I would be completely fucked.
LIKE THAT 9 SHIFT.

The one 10:00 shift I had
I felt like SHIT because of Insomnia.
Seriously. I couldn't get ANY sleep because I knew I'd have to get up so early in the morning.
And now I have a 9.
...
Yeah.
I'm going to have to either cut down my hours to 20-25 per week.
Or quit.
Whichever is easier for them to do.

I swear I want to cry in pure frustration sometimes.
But I'm trying (I really SHOULDN'T be) to be quiet so that my step-brother can sleep.
Because I'm a nice person.
Even when I don't want to be.
....